Back in November, I began to feel overwhelmed by all the things- being a single mom, having both a full time & a part time job, both on nights, & having this blog & a direct sales business on the side. I was letting the busyness of always working- & working my side business from both home & work- get in the way of truly living & enjoying life & the things I do & people I love. And in the middle of holiday season, two of my three boys have birthdays just weeks apart.
Often, feeling overwhelmed can be a sign that, somewhere in our lives, something we’re doing is outside of God’s will for us. So, I took a step back from doing all the things for the side businesses for awhile. Still, something was missing. Maybe I took too big a step back, because where I ended up spiritually & mentally recently, tells me that I was still standing just outside of His will. You’d think that two months off from the side hustles, combined with eleven days off from both jobs, & getting to visit your friends & family would leave you refreshed & renewed. Nope. Not me. While all of that was good & needed, I was still missing something.
As I prayed over this, He spoke. I heard the Spirit gently say, “You’re not FEASTING.” During my first year after giving my life back to Christ, there were many mornings when, as I woke, I could literally hear my spirit already worshiping (if you’ve never experienced this, you’re really missing out!). Lately, I have longed to have that back, but haven’t been feasting on God’s Word, & fellowshipping with Him the way I was then. Stepping back from the blog didn’t help me with that at all- writing weekly biblical posts helps to keep me IN the Word & intentional about learning! No wonder I’ve continued to feel overwhelmed, & conflict & strife have risen up in relationships which are so dear to me!
I’ve begun a study of the book of Job, from the amazing women over at flourishgathering.com, called Feasting on God’s Word, & I’m so excited as I see how only two days in, it’s already helping me to get refocused on keeping my time with God as my number one priority! I know that I need to remain focused on Him, & treasure His Word each day more than my necessary food (Job 23:12).
It may already be after 10pm on January 12th, but I am finally in position to say I’m ready for the new year & whatever it may bring! I’m repositioning myself spiritually, ready for God to use me & this blog He gave me, for His purpose- I want to be aligned with His will for my children & me- ready for Him to bring healing & restoration where there is conflict & strife, & ready for my relationship with Him to go to new levels I’ve never seen before. I’m so excited to see His promises for my family unfold this year, & to share our journey with you.
I’m reworking my writing schedule, into one that is more realistic, & also searching out new ideas to enlarge the scope of topics I write about. What do you want to see more of on the blog this year? What is it you’re excited about in your faith walk? What topics related to fellowship & relationship with God would you like to read more about? What do you see being a trending topic this year, or wish someone would make “a thing” of? Please comment on this post, I truly value your input!
-Walking by Faith & Re-aligning With His Will, Gerri